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and I am doing fine without him
found my piece of mind without him
but I need to heal my heart
if I want a new start
Myself I need to find
I want to take the time
I know that I should not rush
love comes with you do not push
I know that I should not rush
I need to be alone
never doubted myself before him
but I surrendered myself to him
now I recognize that I need to love mine
Myself I need to find
I want to take the time
I know that I should not rush
love comes when you do not push
I know that I should not rush
I need to be alone
And if I find a new man
ask him what he'll do for me
will he add to my life
what I had been missing
and if I find a new man
Tell him he can't change me no
'cos I know that I am enough
I am all that I need
I know that I should not rush
Love comes when you do not push
I need to be alone
I need to be alone
I need to be alone
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Been alone for a while now
Seems I've lost my heart
In my dreams we have everything
But in truth we are so far
I know that you are scared of me
I know that you will never be
In love with me like I'm with you
In love with me like I'm with you
Tears streaming down my face
It happens all the time
How do you find the broken piece
When you're heart's beating out of time?
You know that I am scared of you
You know that I will never do
Anything to hurt you
Even if I can't have you
Hey that crush is breaking your heart
He's crushing your heart x 4
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tell me that you need me
say it with your eyes
a wise woman showed me this way he never lie
caught up in distraction
running from the pain
but am I really living if I am afraid
it won't come easy but it feels so right
dreams are flowing through my mind
it won’t come easy and it could break my heart
it won’t come easy and it could break my heart
but I won't let fear defeat me
hold me back I'll break free
I won't let fear defeat me
hold me back I'll break free
Some see with their eyes
but I see with my heart
You give me special feelings
don't want to be apart
but one day you might leave me
one day you might be gone
it's better to have loved
even with a broken heart
it won't come easy but it feels so right
dreams are flowing through my mind
it wont come easy and it could break my heart
it wont come easy and it could break my heart
but I won't let fear defeat me
hold me back I'll break free
I won't let fear defeat me
hold me back I'll break free
[bridge]
I won’t let fear defeat me
Hold me back I’ll break free
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I used to be alone now I only think about you
Every night I spend alone now I only dream about you
Oh I always sleep alone now I dream I’m sleeping with you
Oh I used to be alone
Used to be alone
Let me stand beside you
let me love and heal you
Let me stand beside you
let me love and heal you
tell me what you're feeling
tell me all the things
tell me all the things you're afraid to say
I used to be alone now I only think about you
Every night I spend alone now I only dream about you
Oh I always sleep alone now I dream I’m sleeping with you
Oh I used to be alone
Used to be alone
Let me stand beside you
let me love and heal you
let me stand beside you
let me love and heal you
Do you dream of me too?
Do you see me with you?
I’ll tell you all the things I’m afraid to say
Cos I want to tell you everything I'm feeling
Everytime you touch me
Everytime you touch me
Cos I want to tell you everything I'm feeling
Everytime you touch me
Everytime you touch me
Cos when you love me it's like
[solo]
Used to be alone
Used to be alone
Do you dream of me too?
Do you see me with you?
Do you dream of me too?
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I have to follow what I feel
accept my ups forgive my downs
and with an open heart I keep
my feet on the ground
He taught me love he taught me strife
took my hand and held on tight
and through his pain I came to see
I could set myself free
we had a real real real real connection
it was a true true true true reflection
we only get what we're ready for
He pulled me out of my world
and from the truth we would run
but there's only so long on this earth
before your time is up
we had a real real real real connection
it was a true true true true reflection
we only get what we're ready for
Take me where the river it flows and never comes back
Wash myself of guilt and my woes and now I am free
Take me where the river it flows and never comes back
Wash myself of guilt and my woes and now i am free
I had the weight of our world on my shoulders he never helped me carry it
I had the weight of our world on my shoulders he never helped me carry it
Further away that I run i grow stronger I'll never look back again
Further away that I run i grow stronger I'll never look back again
Oh and how the river it flows and never comes back
Oh and how the river it flows and never comes back
Oh and how the river it flows and never comes back
Oh and how the river it flows and never comes back
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my whole life has changed
just overnight
I don't know who to be I don't know what to seek
Memories rushing in
they blur my sight
I laugh so I don't cry, I laugh so I don't cry
Though he's on his knees I say good bye
Such bigger things at hand
He cannot understand so he
Self destructs Self destructs Self destructs
So he
Self destructs Self destructs Self destructs
All I want is to heal these scars heal these scars
And from him I will run so far run so far run so far
Run so far that I can't recollect
And when I see his face
My heart won't start to race
He will not bring me down
Although he tried
I'll find a stronger man who takes my hand so I don't
Self destruct Self destruct Self destruct
I don't
Self destruct Self destruct Self destruct
All I want is to heal these scars heal these scars
And from him I will run so far run so far
Run so run so far
Run so run so far
All of the things I have sacrificed to be who I am
All of the things I have sacrificed to be where I am
All of the things I have sacrificed to follow my dreams
All of the things I will sacrifice to follow my dreams
And I'm moving on, on (x 4)
All I want is to heal these scars
So I don't self destruct
All I want is to heal these scars
So I don't self destruct
All I want is to heal these scars
So I don't self destruct
All I want is to heal these scars
So I don't self destruct
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I know that we were really close
But at some point we need to grow
Maybe we just weren't meant to be
(Meant to be no, meant to be no)
Maybe in time we both will see
I know that it's hard but
Have a little patience
Have a little patience
I know time heals all so
Have a little patience
Have a little patience
At times I can be so confused
So I step back for a larger view
I find it's best to just sit and wait
(wait and see yeah wait and see yeah)
The answer the truth it always finds its way
I know that it's hard but
Have a little patience
Have a little patience
I know time heals all so
Have a little patience
Have a little patience
Time to learn time to love
Time to learn time to love
Nothing's good when you hurry
You gotta take time (time to learn, time to love)
Nothing's good when you hurry
You gotta take time (time to learn, time to love)
So much pain in this life we lead
Time to learn time to love
Brave the storm take the time you need
Time to learn time to love
Ups and downs make our life complete
Time to learn time to love
Brave the storm take the time you need
Time to learn time to love
Time to learn time to love
I know that it's hard
Have a little patience
I know time heals all so
Have a little patience
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the man lets the girl go with no self control
you'll never find a love like mine he tells her so
so she feeds her fears believes the man
desperately wants her freedom so she takes a stand
I decided to run away fast as I can go
Run until my feet fail me
I decided to fly away high as I can go
Fly until the sun melts me
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
The girl thinks the pain is gone it sneaks up on her
wounds need time to heal this she has learned
the fight is to keep faith alive and put love first
she'll fight until the day she dies pain is only growth
I decided to run away fast as I can go
Run until my feet fail me
I decided to fly away high as I can go
Fly until the sun melts me
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
Sooner or later you'll run until you can't no more
sooner or later
Sooner or later you'll run until you can't no more
sooner or later
[solo]
Sooner or later you'll run until you can't no more
sooner or later
Sooner or later you'll run until you can't no more
sooner or later
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
she writes she runs she cries she flies
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When I was young they said don’t roam too far
Don’t roam too far then you cannot get lost
When I was young they said don’t fall in love
Don’t fall in love then you can’t break your heart
When I close my eyes
Memories they lie
Leave me wondering why
Why can’t I move on get him out my head
Alone in bed
Much time passes by
Days becoming weeks
All I can think
Is how everything used to make sense
Back when I was young
When I was young all you had to do was lie
And sweetly smile and everything was alright
When I was young everything was black and white
But now with open eyes I see endless shades
When I close my eyes
Memories they lie
Leave me wondering why
Why can’t I move on get him out my head
Alone in bed
Much time passes by
Days becoming weeks
All I can think
Is how everything used to make sense
Back when I was young
[guitar solo]
When I close my eyes
Memories they lie
Leave me wondering why
Why can’t I move on get him out my head
Alone in bed
Much time passes by
Days becoming weeks
All I can think
Is how everything used to make sense
Back when I was young
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There’s a limit for what I can handle
My peace of mind is the scale
And when the stress boils up it drains my spirit
I’m looking for how I can bail
I can’t fall for you
My heart broken in two
Away my confidence flew
I need to find myself
I can fall for you
Too much work to do
Pain reveals the truth
I need to love myself
And I have to put myself first
Down and out ain’t the way to be
Then the desperation eats away integrity
Suddenly my soul ain’t free
Soul ain’t free woah
I can’t fall for you
My heart broken in two
Away my confidence flew
I need to find myself
I can fall for you
Too much work to do
Pain reveals the truth
I need to love myself
[drum solo]
[guitar solo]
I can’t fall for you
Away my confidence flew
I need to love myself
I need to find myself
I need to love myself
I can’t fall for you
My heart broken in two
Away my confidence flew
I need to find myself
I can fall for you
Too much work to do
Pain reveals the truth
I need to love myself
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I'm asking for your help to get my next release, The Love Anthology (release date January 25, 2025), out into the world with this fundraising campaign. Our goal is $10,000 and every little bit helps, whether that means pre-ordering my release or just spreading the word! I like to think of y'all as not just my fans, but members of my team, and it's only your support over the years that has allowed me to remain independent especially since as you might have heard, streaming payouts are extremely low (and getting lower) and touring is getting to be harder than it ever was. You can also check out my IndieGogo (link in the community tab) for more comprehensive perks, like pre-ordering vinyls, t-shirts, CDs etc. Thank you for your support.
released February 14, 2024
Music and lyrics by Jackie Venson
Vocals, guitar and synth by Jackie Venson
Drums by Rodney Hyder
Bass by Marcus Clark
Keys by Brandon Morgan
Photos by Ismael Quintanilla III